Since Max’s diagnosis in February I’ve been thinking a lot about ASD and how it can run in families. As far as me and my husband are aware there is no history of autism in either of our families, so this got me thinking more about myself and whether I could be the link.
I remember watching a programme about autism a few years ago, before having children, and the AQ (autism spectrum quotient) test was mentioned so I went online and had a go at it. I can’t remember my exact score but I remember it being fairly high but I didn’t really think much of it at the time and just brushed it off.
Fast forward to now in my current curious state and I decided I would take the test again. This time I scored 34 which is a high score. According to the website where I took the test, a score over 32 is enough to diagnose someone with ASD. A borderline score is between 26 and 31, 86% of people with a borderline score can be correctly classified as having ASD.
I’m certainly not relying on this test as I struggle to see how a quick 10 minute test alone can be enough to diagnose someone with autism. But it’s certainly interesting and it has got me wondering.
I asked my husband what he thought about my score, expecting him to tell me I was being silly and that it was nonsense. He told me that I definitely have some autistic traits and he’s right, I struggle with eye contact, I like routine, I can’t cope with stress, I’m not good in social situations, I’m very sensitive to noise and smells and I don’t like change. But is this enough to label myself as autistic?
Is it possible to display some autistic traits but not actually be autistic? Maybe we are all on the spectrum somewhere, after all it is so vast.
I’m not sure what I think, maybe I do have ASD and maybe I don’t. Either way I’ve come to the conclusion that it doesn’t really matter, I am not about to go out and seek a diagnosis because it would make no difference to me.
But it’s a really thought provoking subject and makes me wonder if there are other mums of autistic children who have thought about this too and have maybe gone on to be diagnosed. Or whether, like me, they have their suspicions but have never felt a need to take it any further.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this, please leave a comment.
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